Hay!... do you people like my background!!..??...IT'S AWESOME  aint it!...yeah i knOw dont even lie!! i dont really have nothing to say!..cept that this hole mission trip this is really starting to stress people out! and to me everybody including me everybody is startin to pop off and has to always be smart to somebody!.. that's one thing i notice that is really startin to bother me!.. and that why i think satan is really tryin to bring us down because we're all just gettin smart with ppl and ppls feeling are gettin hurt and we need to watch out for ppl when they do so that we can help it stop and stop FAST!..but that about all i have to say right now!..cuz there aint nothin else i can think of! so well im bout to go to bed so ill ttyl LOVE YA LOTS BYEZ!                                                                                   *jcruce*                p.s.  people call me somtime lol now comment me on this message and my new background k thanks love ya lots bye!

We Need Get To The Point Where We Love To Listen To God Instead Of Listen Because Of Fear!

HeY! .... WOW IT'S BEEN A WHILE..lol! sorry i havnt posted in forever!..Ive been totally busy but im sure all of us have..cuz it is the spring-practically-! Todays sermon was good for it not being super daves!..HAHA brings back good times! he was talkin bout love the lord your god and how he constantly forgives us and how we should acknowledge, and should desire to be with him! and how he endures all time of our life! oh my G! i CANNOT wait til mission trip it's gonna be awesome! we mite have a lot to do to prepare for it but if we dont get it by the time we have to perform it i think god will take care of it!..CAMP I CANNOT WAIT i wish it was july right now! this camp is gonna be even better!..it always seems like somebody always says that it wasnt anygood and stuff but when we go it's like it was awesome and stuff and we will always go back!..personally i think it's a first baptist youth thing we got goin on.!.anyways it's gettin pretty late so ill talk to you all later LOVE YAWL LOTS! BYEZ!

   -jcruce-teletubee-

p.s. people call me sometime!lol!

hey..what are you people up too?..me i aint up to nothin..just talkin..ive been bugged and bored all day!..i know what fun i had!!...who was i bein bugged by??...guess...bailey!yea..i had to deal with her almost ALL DAY LONG!!...well friday was ok..i was glad it was friday..i went and saw a movie that nite!..i saw glory road it was a good movie!..and saturday..i went to my BeSt FrIeNdS house ..-ellen-..we had fun she invited ania too!..which was kewl..we hada good time!and that nite we went and saw another movie..last holiday it was a good movie!..yea it was funnie sad and happy..yea lol!..and then we like didnt go to bed til like 2:00 or 1:00 or somethin like that!yea it was fun!..and sunday nite i went to choir practic at 4:30 for the first in a lond time.. it seems...and then we had church and michael gave usa mission thing ..and then my cuzin reuel gave the message that nite..he did a great job!..and then today i got woke up and had to fold cloths and do other stuff and i just talked on the fone..i just had a borin last couple of dayz..well..dang i got to go to school tomorrow and i really dont want too!?!!gah...well im tired so im goin to bed ttyl LOVE YAWL LOTS bye <3 ya lots

         sMiLe YoU gOt FrEnChEs

            <3 jcruce <3

hey!..well it's been a few dayz sense ive talked well left any stuff on xanga ive been kind of busy!..yeap...

         SUNDAY...well i went to church and had a blast!..it was a good message like always!!..after church i went home and ate and then i went out to the high school softball field and batted..it was ok but i couldve done better..and then that nite i went back to church and steve harris..got admitted to the deacons committee somethin like that..i cant spell that!..haha...it was great!!

        MONDAY..well i woke up and i was already tired haha!..and went to school fun fun fun!..not not not really!..haha..well at least i have a good first block teacher..guess who i have?..i have mrs.mcray!!!..but yea newayz..i went through a whole day of school tired!..yea and then at 6:00pm..i had softball practice..as a team already cut down and stuff in the foundation building!..and then i went home and took a bath and went to bed after i talked on the fone!..lol

        TUESDAY...i woke up again even more tired and sore cuz monday at softball practice after we lifted weights we did squats and then bench press lol!..but yea i woke up sore and tired even more!..and headed on to school..i bout fell asleep in almost evey class it was crazie yea i know!!and i drug myself home and talked on the fone forever and barely stayed awake lol and finally i just fell asleep talkin to somebody!!

         WEDNESDAY...i woke up and my mom was mad at me for some reason and ruined my whole day..so wednesday my day didnt start off good and she didnt make it better and she acted like nothin happened like she never hallered at me and popped off or anything..cuz i didnt do anytin wrong it was crazie i was sssooo mad and upset the whole day like it was the worst it really did ruin my day!..and she was like in the car im just so stressed and all this stuff ..and i was thinkin well dont mean you got to take it out on me and if you wouldnt do it the hard way you wouldnt be soo stressed i mean come on .. i aint givin yawl all the details..yea she wants me to feel sorry for her cuz shes stressed after shes dunn hollerin and popin off at me but i didnt feel sorry for her or say anything cuz i was mad...yea i was soo mad after she hollered at me i was walkin to the bathroom and i hit the hallway door and it hit the wall really hard..lol..!..she got mad but i was too!..well iwent on to school and had the worst day ever!..and then after school i had softball practice..and i was late eatin and for a team and almost for youth church ..but i made it in time and richards message was great..and then when it was time prayin ..i felt so guilty for not walkin straight with god and just havin a daily devotion with him and then i felt bad for hittin the door but i couldnt hold it in anymore..and i just felt so suckish and bad and i just like broke down talkin to him i started cryin and thats just how powerful he is its crazie!..well i went home and went to bed!..feelin ok but not great!

         THURSDAY..TODAY..well i last nite my parents were agin on like i was perfect and i screwed up and stuff in softball and how i could of done soo much better than i did and i was thinkin well i didnt have a great day cuz of my mom but i didnt !.. my week is just not doin soo good!..i cant wait til tomorrow at 3:05 and get out of school for the weekend!!..well i woke up and had a better day i guess i was kind of in a rush!.. and i dont like bein rushed when i cant find things..its ok if im rushed and im all good to go but when i aint i hate it haha!..and well i went by the gas station and got me somethin to eat and drink for breakfast!..and headed for school!..with no enthusiasm..haha...i made and 87 on my FIRST ENGLISH TEST YAY!!..im not flunkin!..haha! well after school i had softball practice again!..well yea..it was better than yesterdi cuz i had to do better cuz i didnt want to listen to that crap i had to yesterdi!...and then i went i got somethin to eat at the breaker for supper..it was yum yum good!..and then i talked on the fone with this guy that im friends with yea he's cool!..and now im typin my entry or wutever you call ! haha!...this is prolly the longest message i have wrote in a big thing one time like not two messages for today but one! haha lol! .. maybe maybe not! i dont know!..well im listenin to barlow girls..and one song of relient k which is be my escape .. it s a good song..well i like it!..well im goin to the movies tomorrow nite..one reason cuz i GOT TO GET OUT OF MY HOUSE AWAY FROM MY PARENTS THERE BOUT TO GET ON MY LAST NERVE BEIN ALL MEAN I AINT DONE NOTHIN TOO THEM...!!and another reason is cuz i want to watch another movie lol ..its not like i havnt seen like all of em newayz HAHA!...well gah im soo tired and it's not even late im just soo wore out from softball and i dont know why ive played more games and not have ever been this tired!...well it's gettin late..i better get on to bed!...well i got to go bye yawl <3 yawl lots bye

         sMiLe YoU gOt FrEnChEs

                  <3jCrUcE<3

hey!...it's been an OkAy dAy!..i got woken up by my mom and she told me to clean!..haha!..so yea!..yesterdi..my mom and dad went to the movie for there annivery..-it was wednesday-..dang it changed fonts on me gosh..its crazie!..but yea i went to the movies too!..well i got on here and stuff..yawl should read richards good stuff on his xanga site it was good he wrote it yesterdi!..so yea i got it today in email or somethin like that it was weird but it was good!..i got me thinkin and stuff!..well rite now im eatin some yUmYuM ice....dudududududududunt ice ice baby!..lol it's gettin cold again-burrr-! tommorrow is sunday -yay- church!...i gotta read this book for english tomorrow...a bunch..we're readin to kill a mockin bird but ive already read it i just forgot like half of it!..crazie..well guess what everybody???.....I MADE THE SOFTBALL TEAM!..yeap..i was tryin to get the stuff to copy to this song so i could put it on my xanga site but it wouldnt work..it was take me away by barlow gurls-there new cd-..yep kewl i know!..haha..i got there cd its awesome!..richard was talkin bout how he would think soo many bad things and want it to hurt but the more he thought it the more it didn't really matter..and i commented him i was like yea i think soo many bad mean peverted thoughts and i just keep them to myself but when i do say one of those thoughts its soo wrong like it's one of the worst ones ever i guess i just couldnt hold it in any longer and i feel bad when i actually say it and hurt ppl by doin that but when i think it i feel like dang why did i just think that but i feel like well i didnt say it aloud so its not soo bad .. when it really is!!!but ima try and talk nicer and think better and treat ppl a lot better all around..and how my day is sooo bad when i dont pray cuz ive been slackin a lot here lately but its changin today ..but when i dont pray and i slack and i get further away from god i have the worst dayz and it just sucks and when i pray and spend time with him and have a devotion and play my piano even though it mite not sound good rite then i feel great and when i play his hymns and i get good at them i feel a lot better and it just sooths me when i play!..i dont know what it is i mean i do its him ALL HIM...you know hes enough for me!.. even though i take that for granted and i think i need more and more and more than what he's already given me!.. and when i stop and think bout it it hurts me to see who the real person i am that im soo stengie and selfish and it frustrates me you know!but it gettin late so i g2g byez love yawl lots ttyl bye <3ya!

             sMiLe YoU gOt FrEnChEs

                        <3jcruce<3